Jensen McRae - Happy Girl (Visualizer)

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“Happy Girl” began, quite fittingly, as a mistake—I was trying to play one chord progression but wound up playing the opening notes of what it eventually became. I was in Rahki’s studio, halfway through my last year of college, reflecting on all the girls I’d been to get me to that point. I thought about how I’d done everything I was supposed to do, had sanded off the edges of myself that had always pushed people away from me, and I still wasn’t happy. And I thought about how articulating the pain and loneliness of being chronically apart from others is often more trouble than it’s worth. So I wrote this song about the language gap between feeling pain and explaining it, and, as on “Dead Girl Walking,” how it is both easier and harder to manufacture a happy exterior than to invite people into your darkness"
- Jensen McRae

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Sit down, got something to say though
I don’t know if I should
By the way my light’s gone out
You know I’m not doing good

I took the years like a pill so
I’m supposed to be cured
Lost weight and smiled for the camera
What a happy girl

Sometimes I am, I am, I am
Sometimes I am

Know you wanted a happy girl
I can lie if I cannot learn
How to become a happy girl
I can act like a happy happy girl
Happy girl
Happy girl
I can act like a happy girl

These days, not sure where the bruise is everywhere hurts
Say chin up, sad girl
The truth is it could be worse
You want to meet in the middle
We both make wrong turns
I try to map out the pain but
There are no words

Know you wanted a happy girl
I can lie if I cannot learn
How to become a happy girl
I can act like a happy happy girl
Happy girl
Happy girl
I can act like a happy girl

HUMS

Know you wanted a happy girl
I can lie if I cannot learn
How to become a happy girl
I can act like a happy happy girl
Happy girl
Happy girl
I can act like a happy girl